I Asked For This

I’m frustrated at myself because I’ve asked for all of this. The pain. The difficulty. The uncertainty.

I knew going in it wasn’t “smart.” But I was arrogant, and thought I was strong enough to handle it.

Now I’ve passed the point of no return. I can’t go back to the way it was before, when things were easy.

My only option is to get stronger and move forward. The universe is too big to worry about my success, but it is not cruel. It wants my success, but knows that it has to be in my hands for it to be truly a success.

I need to prove my initial arrogance. I need to prove that I can carry the weight of the universe.