Why?

[*Original date – 5 May 2019]

• I broke a long time ago, and I don’t have the energy anymore to pick up the pieces. How can I ask someone to shoulder that burden for me?

• This is one of the few times I feel like I’m neither prepared nor worthy of what I want.

• I don’t settle, and unfortunately she set the bar extremely high.

• I don’t know how to try for my own happiness anymore. I can’t be with someone to make myself happy, so I need to know at least I’m making someone else happy.

• I feel like I failed myself in that relationship. I wasn’t at a point where I could maintain it.

• I’m not good enough right now. I’m not up to my own standards, so I don’t want to give myself over at half best. “Good enough” isn’t good enough.

• I don’t really hate myself, but I don’t like myself right now. I know I want to change. I don’t want to be with someone who loves the me right now.