An Outcome

[* May 2020 *]

So I was
Finally
Able to do it;

I was finally
Able to really share,
And I was right;

She rejected my feelings;
It hurts,
But it’s different this time;

It isn’t despair;
It isn’t emptiness;
It isn’t an abyss,
Taking away all
The light in my world;

It’s almost like a happy pain;
I didn’t feel empty,
But rather validated;

She may not have accepted
My feelings,
But I finally have;
And that in itself
Has fulfilled me;

Although it may have been
The outcome I wanted least,
At least I finally have
An outcome;

I respect her feelings,
And though I cannot know for certain,
I hope she respects mine;
Or at least understands them;

And though it makes me
Vulnerable,
I will keep my heart
Open;

I will keep it open
For her
If she ever feels
The same again;

But if not,
I will keep it open
For whatever life
Sends my way;

Although I can’t imagine
Something more beautiful,
The universe somehow always
Finds a way to surprise you.