Loser God Process

 I Am Who Am Perf3ct and so 
 The world is Perf3ct – for 
 It is in my absolute image 
 If that’s really the Truth 

 So why the fuck’s my world … this? 
 I thought that I Am Who Am Perf3ct 
 So why is my reflection like this? 
 Still – really I Am Who Am Perf3ct 
 & - still – Perf3ction Am I really 
 It must just be part of my Process 
 You know – like a work in progress 

 ‘cause even though I know – still 
 I Am Who Am more than Perf3ct for 
 I Am Who Creates & Animates – but 
 Everyone knows movie masterpieces 
 Have to take lotsa Time & besides 
 Who even wants instant ¶erfƐction 
 Living inside the imaginary mind? 

 And so now I Am Who Am Certain 
 That my reality is intentional 
 Pieces of an incomplete puzzle 
 Still – like what in the fuck? 

 Why’s my Perf3ct planet on fire? 
 What could’ve made anyone decide 
 To create child rape & genocide? 
 Why the fuck can’t I even answer 
 My own questions if I Am Who Am? 
 Why’d my Perf3ction plans demand 
 & command not even I understand? 

 “Must be part of my plan” sounds 
 Like bullshit even to I Am Who Am 
 However I know I Am Who Am – or at 
 The very least I Am Who Am Certain 
 There is still a good plan – so at 
 The very least I let my self play 
 & pretend I Am Who Am at the end 

 And so now I Am Who Am Uncertain yet 
 Still - choose to do like if I knew 
 Still - believe in my worth in You 
 And finally - accepting the Truth 

 Still – what can even I do 
 To undo such a Termina|l 
 World in spiral denial? 
 Even harder to answer: 
 Why in the actual fuck 
 Did I choose to wake up 
 In such a fucking loser? 

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V.1

I Am Who Am Perf3ct and so 
The world is Perf3ct - for 
It is in my absolute image 
If that's really the Truth...

Why the fuck's my world so...this? 
I thought that I Am Who Am Perf3ct 
So why is my reflection like this? 
Still - really I Am Who Am Perf3ct 
& - still - Perf3ction Am I really 
It must just be part of my Process 
You know - like a work in progress 

'cause even though I know - still 
I Am Who Am Perf3ct then more for 
I Am Who Creates & Animates - and 
Everyone knows movie masterpieces 
Have to take lotsa Time & besides 
Who even wants instant ¶erfƐction 
Living inside the imaginary mind? 

And so now I Am Who Am Certain 
That my reality is intentional 
Pieces of an incomplete puzzle 
Still - like what in the fuck? 

Why's my Perf3ct planet on fire? 
What could've made anyone decide 
To create child rape & genocide? 
Why the fuck can't I answer even 
My own questions if I Am Who Am? 
Why'd my Perf3ction plans demand 
& command not even I understand? 

"Must be part of my plan" sounds 
Like bullshit even to I Am Who Am 
However I know I Am Who Am - or at 
The very least I Am Who Am Certain 
There is still a good plan - so at 
The very least I let my self play 
& pretend I Am Who Am at the end 

And so now I Am Who Am Uncertain 
Still - choose to do like I knew 
Still - believe the worth in you 
& so finally accepting the Truth 

Still - what can even I do 
To undo such a Termina|l 
World in spiral denial? 
Even harder to answer: 
Why in the actual fuck 
Did I choose to wake up 
In such a fucking loser?