Wanting to say "I'm *****"
Yet know You deserve oh~so
Much more than another one
Of my pyrite apologies and
Lists of improvements I'll
Immediately dismiss 'cause
My immature indifference &
Narcissistic interests are
Acting like my Mistress to
Keep me from becoming like
I need 2B if truly wanting
To be your one in Eternity
You may never see them all
But I've written countless
Pages upon pages about You
No, for You, 'cause trying
To convey when I am always
Failing to say what I need
For Me to finally turn May
Nightmares into a Daydream
So I am finally gonna grow
A pair and share, so here:
I know I really messed up
And this Time - finally
I really understand
I really messed up &
So if I am being honest
I wanted to give up, again
Like Me at every other thing
But that's exactly why I know
You're §pecial - the ÖИΣ for Me
Whom I want to hold & call "Honey"
Because You be my §weet~Queen~Bee
Though I know this moment cannot B
For Me to become your Yellow~King
So for now I want you to know
When I go & continue to grow
I §till believe N You & Me &
How one day your Hive will B
Found hanging, N my Fig~Tree
Even if never getting to eat
Your fruit & honey if already
Buried beneath roots of Our~Tree
And to end, I’ll stop hiding behind my Poetry.
I have so much I want to say. But even if I had all of time & space to place my words, I don’t think I’d be able to. I love You, truly. When I said You are the one for me, I wasn’t kidding. That was, and will always be, the Truth. So know that I’ll never give up on You, no matter the hells I’ll have to go through.
I’m not giving up on You. The only end I accept is the one where I see You & Me. But I’m doing it the right way this time. I won’t force this verse if “We” doesn’t rhyme right now. You’re taking a stance, but I have to continue the dance. So I’ll keep going & keep growing – until You are ready for mine holding. Even if it means waiting to see You, my Love, on the other side of this green dream.
Even though I said otherwise, it looks like I got lost in Poetry again. But I guess that’s just how it is when I write for You. Inspiration incarnate. You might disagree, but Perfection is all I see in your image & your eyes. When I write words, I paint pictures, not poems. For although people think poems are read, they’re unaware that it’s You who really be my Truth’s Poetry.
♡Sugar☆World☮ 