What I Almost Said (I’ll Leave You Alone Now)

I don't know what's 
going on right now; 
nothing at all 
makes sense. 

All I can think about 
is talking to you, 
and when I get my chance, 
I hurt you. 

I'm always here if 
you ever need anything, 
even if just to talk 
about the weather. 

But I can't keep hurting you; 
So I have to assume 
you're never coming back 
at the moment. 

Because staring at my phone 
and waiting for a text 
which will never come 
is driving me more insane 
than I already am - so 
that when I finally do 
get a chance - it always 
causes the same crazy pain. 

I think I learned my lesson; 
you're right - it's not fair 
I put all this on you; 
I'm not your responsibility; 
I'll leave you alone now; 
Best of luck with whatever 
you're going through. 

And I mean that genuinely; 
I can't imagine what's on 
your plate right now; 
I genuinely hope for 
the best for you. 

God §peed