Clash | 27 June 2021
I know you want me
And that's why it hurts so much
I know that I've won your heart
But I'll never truly have it.
I want to take the risk
But you never will
I might be good
But never worth more than a good time.
I keep coming to the conclusion
The best way to make you happy
Is to stay away and to let you keep
The happiness you found without me.
But every time I submit to that feeling
My music yells at me.
I guess my mind and heart
Aren't on good terms right now.
Move | 27 June 2021
You're the carrot on the stick
That the universe is using
To move me towards my duty.
You're my inspiration
For following my fate
And reaching my destination.
untitled poem | 27 June 2021 | “Had I Been There”
How much pain have you experienced
because of my selfishness?
How many tears would never had to have
been dried had I been there?
Two Minds | 29 June 2021
You brought me back together with our love for you,
But now two exist in my mind again:
He who will stop at nothing to get you,
And he who will die to protect you.
More often than not they agree,
But their wars are catastrophic.
Hearts | 3 July 2021
I feel as though I'm cursed
To fall deeply in love with those
I can never have.
Even crueler:
Once I have given my heart away,
I am never able to get it back.
The only way to ever love again
Is to create a new heart,
And let the other die alone.
My hearts never exist for me,
But I can never give them away.
I'm tired of losing my forever.
Home | 3 July 2021
This world makes me
So sad and so tired sometimes.
I wish I could just go home
Where I find Serenity.
Too bad I can't return to my home,
Because I can't return to her.
Awake | 3 July 2021
I never want to go to sleep,
Because I'm too afraid when I wake up
You won't be here anymore.
As long as I'm awake,
I can hold on to this reality
Where I know you at least exist.
Weaker | 3 July 2021
The further you are,
The weaker I feel.
The closer you are,
The weaker I am.
Dead Weight | 3 July 2021
I know I'll never be able to stop loving you,
So that's why I'm trying so hard
To convince you to hate me.
Your life will be so much easier
Without me,
But I know I can't let go.
Set yourself free
By realizing I'm only
Weighing you down.
It's stupid to
Carry around
Dead weight.
Playing With Fire | 3 July 2021
So long has it been since I was warmed
By the fires of jealousy.
I don't like wanting things,
Because green isn't a good color on me.
Ironic to worry about desire's fires
While the world burns down around me.
I best be careful,
Lest I end up engulfed in flames.
♡Sugar☆World☮ 