I’ve set so many rules & restrictions that I must follow. It’s overwhelming, but I’ve learned how to manage it.
However, in setting these rules, I’ve given away some of my freedom and humanity to them. I don’t feel like I’m the one who’s decided to do my actions. I’ve thought about the consequences from all perspectives, rather than just mine.
However, when I’m exhausted, I finally feel like me. The universe in my mind dissipates, too much for my exhaustion to maintain. Then I fall into our shared universe. Since my mind’s universe is resting, I’m fully present in the physical.
(that’s why so much of my best writing comes from Adderall inspired all nighters. I don’t have the energy to think about my words, so I write them down and try to make sense of them later)
♡Sugar☆World☮ 