[Why i like to help| 5 May 2016]
I have so much empathy. It’s one reason i think I’m good at management. I cam understand how the person is feeling to the extent that i feel the same. This is why i like to help people. I used to think it was because i knew what it was like to be in that situation and need help. But it’s more than that. When i see someone in distress, i don’t feel bad for them and want to help, i actually start going into distress too. That’s why when i see a problem, i will sometimes try to help too much. I try to tell them how to fix a ptoblem. However, sometimes they need to figure it out on their own, even if it’s the same thing i told them yo do. It’s not that I’m trying to be a busy body, i actually am feeling a similar feeling and want to get rid of it for me just as much for you. And not only this, once this person is happy, i get happyness from 2 places: the happiness you feel when you help a friend, and the actual happiness/stress relief the other person feels too
[Individuality & Evolution | 6 May 2016]
Individuality: It’s a common thing to lose interest in something popular or think something popular is a sell out. The reason for this is that this is the first time we are able to interact with such a massive amount of people. In these interactions we see that people have more in common than we think. This cam be comforting knowing that people share similar problems. The thing is, seeing that others have the same experiences as you makes you question if those feelings are really your own. You begin to fear you’ll lose yourself: your understanding of who you are and your identity. Because of this, people tend to focus on what’s different instead of the same. A lot of conflict comes from this, as we put the few differences above the infinitely more similarities. Not only are there fewer differences, but they’re pretty inconsiquential, like skin color or sexuality.
Evolution: i think humans as a species are evolving. Short term memory is becoming obsolete. The reason it was important before was we used to worry about not dieing. Now that we don’t, theres a lot less stuff we have to worries about I n terms of survival
[Realizations | 7 May 2016]
•The fact that i have these thoughts, theories, ideas does not make me special. It’s the fact that i have reached these conclusions at such a young age. Because of this, my potential for growth is massive. But even more importantly, I still have the energy and drive to make a difference in the world
•I have the wonder of a child for the first time since i was 10
•I haven’t changed. I’ve always been like this, or at least this is the person I’ve always wanted to be. The difference between then and now is that I’m no longer afraid to do what I want. Before I always was too worried what others thought. Now I know what I want and will do it.
•The world we live in has so much on it that we still don’t understand. The mysteries on earth alone could keep us busy for hundreds of thousands of years, if not more. That’s not even taking the rest of the universe into account. As you mature, you realize how little you actually know. It’s kind of ironic, since the more sure/confidant you are of the present, future, how the world works, etc., the less you most likely actually know.
•I’m not afraid to fail
•The difference between introverts and extroverts
•The moment when the actual answer to a question is “because that’s just how it is” and it’s not just us being lazy or overwhelmed by the question is the moment when we have found “god”. I do not think we will ever truly answer a question like that.
-(getting into theory catagory) if I’m right and we will never get to the point where “that’s just how it is” is as far we can go, maybe “god” doesn’t want us to know him or figure him out. Looking back to my theory that god is running an experiment, wouldn’t it make sense for him to completely separate himself from us? If he is trying to learn something, any interference from him could skew the results he’s looking for
•People are always trying to answer questions, with the big one being “what’s our purpose?” I think to answer questions for the sake of answering questions is our purpose. You can see it in kids; they know exactly what they want in life, and that is to learn how the world works. They question everything “why is the sky blue?” “Where do babies come from?” “Why does this happen?” Etc. But as we get older, we start to lose some of that curiosity. And as we lose that curiosity, we lose our purpose. Instead of asking how, we start to ask why it even matters. There’s a lot of possible reasons for this shift, with the fear of failure being one of the biggest contributors in my opinion
•Beauty, just like matter, is never destroyed, rather changed to a new form
•People are only afraid of power they cannot control
•When i get mad at people in dreams, it’s because i want to tell them something but fell like i can’t
[Change | 11 May 2016]
People only hate change when they are comfortable. That’s why ambitious people love change. They are never satisfied with “good enough”. They always know that there can be a better way. And if they can no longer progress, they will start pursuing another goal.
In recent times we’ve seen a lot of unrest. The reason why people like Obama, sanders, and trump are appealing is that they are saying something different. People are pissed right now. All of the world’s dark secrets are coming to light, and people are upset and disgusted by their forced ignorance and the way they’ve been treated. Even though trump is am asshole, at least he’s stirring up the norm. If people are unsatisfied with things currently, they’ll want a change whether or not it is better.
[Note051116 | 11 May 2016]
I want to change the world.
I want to experience everything.
I can’t lose myself.
I want to make my story an interesting one.
When all is said and done, I want my body to be exhausted, broken, used up, nothing left to give. And I want to be the one to make it that way.
[Drugs | 12 May 2016]
Drugs don’t change how you think, they change how you process the information
[Logic-emotion | 12 May 2016]
I’ve always been shy, but at the same time love being in shows and hosting parties. I could never really figure out if i was introverted or extroverted.
I think I’ve figured it out. The introvert in me comes from my dad. He’s very in his head and contemplative. He thinks things through and is logical. Because of this, he doesn’t like meaningless interactions and preferred not to go out when he was younger.
My mom on the other hand can’t live without other people. She has so much love in her that she just wants to see everyone happy. Love is such a powerful emotion that my mom doesn’t know how to process it sometimes, that’s why she used to get so angry or sad – it was just an overflow of emotion.
My parents complement each other well: my dad’s logic helps my mom think through her emotions while my mom shows my dad how important it is to care. I have both of these qualities. Because of this, I was able to realize the illogical nature of my strong emotions early on and ended up being confused by them. Whenever i would feel something, i would try to think of why i felt like it. For a while i thought i might be sociopathic because i thought not understanding emotions meant not having them.
[Control | 5 June 2016]
People like being in control, which is fine. However, I’ve realized that in accepting I don’t have much control, I have learned to love the chaos that is life.
A major mistake people make is thinking they have control of what happens after death. In doing this, they tend to devalue their lives: if you believe in an eternal afterlife, you begin to think that your time on earth is insignificant and should be used to prepare for it; if you believe nothing happens after you die, you begin to think life is pointless since it will all amount to nothing in the end. Now I’m not saying thinking about what happens after death and forming theories is dumb. I have formed my own beliefs as to what will happen when I die. However, I realize there isn’t a way for me to prove it in life, so I don’t worry about whether I’m right or not. If I’m right, that’s awesome. If I’m wrong, there are 2 possibilities I can think of: either i die and nothing happens or i die and realize that there is an afterlife, just not the one i expect. Both of these options are fine to me. If nothing happens, then I won’t know and won’t have to worry about it. If something unexpected happens, that just means I get to explore a new experience that hadn’t ever crossed my mind while alive. On a side note: Though I don’t necessarily believe in heaven/hell in the classic sense, I realize that it is a possibility. However, I can’t comprehend a God that would punish me for being curious about different possibilities and forming theories based off my own experiences. However, if the fundamentalistic understanding of God/heaven/hell where you can only be rewarded by believing purely in unprovable faith is true, then I refuse to accept the notion that that version of God’s love is infinite and would not want to serve such an unreasonable god. If I’m punished for my curiosity, I’ll gladly accept that punishment
When we accept that we cannot control much, we can learn and focus on what we actually can. Just because life is chaotic, it doesn’t mean we can’t direct that chaos. It’s like a raging river: no matter what we do, that water will continue to flow; we cannot control the water, but the direction in which it flows. Another example can be how we look at energy. Energy continually work to get to its lowest energy state, but just because we know it’ll end up in the lowest state doesn’t mean we can’t alter the path in between the beginning and the end
Control is just a manipulation on knowledge. The better you understand something, the better you can use it to work for you. Look at electricity, it has always existed. It literally runs through our bodies. But it took people like Farady and Maxwell to begin to truly understand it. Even when they began to understand it, others’ understanding of it was so limited that they thought it was useless research and that we would never be able to apply it to everyday life. Now the world we live in couldn’t exist without it.
[Cultural Appropriation | 5 June 2016]
People often use the phrase “cultural appropriation” as a negative term. However, I look at it as a great way to learn about others while also creating new, unique, and exciting cultures. I understand that people may feel as their culture is being perverted or destroyed when people take it and use it for themselves, but the fact that one’s culture is being used in a different way does not make the source material any less. Instead, the old culture and what made it good still exists and is not replaced; but rather, a new culture is made.
What made me think about this is the show samurai chanploo, which created a story based in feudal Japan with hip hop elements. This combination of cultures doesn’t lessen the value of significance of either japan’s culture or hip hop culture, but rather uses both as influences to create a new interpretation and, in my opinion, a great work of art. Another example if this is the music from DJ Okawari
[Multi-verse | 7 June 2016]
Idea for multi-verse: the multi-verse is the sum of everyone’s imaginations. When someone thinks of a story, the universe is actually created. However, stories can never fully explain how exactly that universe works. So when we fill in the blanks ourselves, it creatures a unique universe that shares similar characteristics to that of the source material, e.g. fan-fiction. (Inspired by the Harry Potter series)
People may argue against the idea that the worlds we create in our imagination aren’t real because they aren’t physical, but there are examples of which people have created a physical manifestation of their imaginations. Disney world is one of these. People often describe this place as “magical.” What that magic is is just a new set of parameters which the world he created acts under.
♡Sugar☆World☮ 