Found my Lost §elf suffocating under
The Pressure öF Poseidon's
Pillow drowning Me Ñ
Cs öF Questioning
I keep wanting 2
Say "I'm sorry"
Even though I
Know there B
Иo Reason 2
So Y do I
-Alway§-
Apologize 4
Just existing?
I'll say I don't
Want 2 B a burden;
Maybe I just B afraid
So Y am I oh~so afraid
öf letting my §elf
Rely on the Ones
I Care about?
It hurts oh~so much 2
B let down by those Ü Love
So I guess if I never rely on
Those I care about then they will
Never have the Chance 2 let Me down
I Care far too little about my §elf
2 find any Good Words 4 Me, & yet
I Care far too much about Ü 2
Ever choose 4 Ü any other
Than Words öF Perfecto
Ü don't know this, but
I Am always talking with Ü
Inspiration borrows Her♡Posture
& so Λ11 öF my thoughts look like We
[Original: untitled note | 30 March 2021]
I’m suffocating under these questions
I keep wanting to say “I’m sorry” even though there’s no reason to. Why do I apologize for existing?
Why am I so afraid to let myself rely on those I care about?
I said I didn’t want to be a burden, but maybe I am just afraid. It hurts so much to be let down by those you love. I guess if I never rely on those I care for, then they never have the chance to let me down.
You don’t know this, but I’m always talking with you.
My inspiration borrows your form, so all my thoughts look like you.
I care too little about myself to find the right words.
I care too much about you to ever choose anything other than the perfect words.
♡Sugar☆World☮ 