Even if you say I don't need to apologize, I'm sorry about how I was earlier. I didn't realize just how scared I am until I tried opening up to you, then made it weird when I couldn't process it
Things don't seem so insanely overwhelming when they fit inside my head, but saying it makes it real in a way where I'd understand just how much it really weighs, & that realization made me panic
I really appreciate & admire that about you. In a string world full of scissors, you've been the golden thread that tied me to earth & helped lead me back to reality
I told my self to be done - that
I was finished focusing on this
if our goodbye really be more than just liminal reality, my parting-way poetry: what i am now realizing ~ is what makes You special ~ is i knew exactly how this ends ~ and still chose to go through it ~ because You are truly worth it ~ i'll gladly die this death ~ again & again ~ thank you, my Love
what i am now realizing ~
is what makes You so special ~
is i knew exactly how this ends ~
and still chose to go through it ~
because You are truly worth it ~
i'll gladly die this death ~
again & again & again ~
thank you, my Love ❤️
[10 January 2024 Revision]
even though You say
i don't need to apologize
i'm sorry about how i was earlier
i hadn't realized, just how scared i am
'til i tried opening up to You & made
it weird when i couldn't process it
things don't seem so
insanely overwhelming
when they fit N§ide of
my head though whenever
i say it out loud, makes
it real N a way where i'd
really understand just how
much it really weighs, that
realization brought Me panic!
i appreciate & admire that about You;
N a §tring world, full of scissors
You have been the golden thread
tying Me to earth & helping
lead Me back to reality
i had told my self to be done, and that
i was finally finished focusing on this
if our goodbye really be more than just
liminal reality, my parting-way poetry:
what i am now realizing ~
is what makes You so special ~
is i knew exactly how this ends ~
and still chose to go through it ~
because You are truly worth it ~
i'll gladly die this death ~
again & again & again ~
thank you, my Love ❤️
♡Sugar☆World☮ 