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That part of Me I loved is beyond gone
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Me getting prodded with a cattle prong
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First draft
Just now having a Requiem Realization
Of exactly how my first heart got lost
& N doing so, as Proof of Youth's Truth
So finally resigning to the good design
Of my mind's truely transcendent devine
Acknowledging no matter how much i whine
Nor how hard I may ever try - No Matter
How far I go beyond - No Matter at all
That part of Me I loved is beyong gone
So sounding like a Melancholic song &
I don't get me wrong, for it felt like
I was getting prodded by a cattle prong
But even so, I find comfort N the notes
Because even when I can't see his face
Nor REMember his name, as long as I play
This odd little game, this sad sad song
Is an anchor to him, tying ܧ ToGetHer
Like Vines, we intertwine as i pretend
I can hear his ghost call & sing along
alt. draft
Just now, having a Requiem Realization
Of exactly how my first heart got lost
& N doing, as Proof of Youth's Truth, I
Finally B resigning to mine good design
Of my mind's truely transcendent devine
& acknowledging now No Matter how much
I whine, nor how hard I try - No Matter
How far I go beyond - No Matter at all
That part of Me I loved is beyond gone
Though sounding like a melancholic song
& don't get Me wrong, for it felt like
Me getting prodded with a cattle prong
But even so, I find comfort N the notes
Because even when I can't see his face
Nor REMember his name, as long as I Am
Playing this §trange little game, then
This sad, sad song becomes so much more
Acting as an anchor to him & tethering
ܧ ToGetHer Like Vines ☯ We intertwine
As I pretend I can hear his ghost call
So I sing along, making Me feel ܧ ΔLL
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