Trapped N our existence
Until our purpose B achieved;
Cursed! So exhausting it is
This cycle of trial and failure.
Struggling towards enlightenment,
For enlightenment is
The only way
To break from the cycle.
I've explored öDD galaxies & §trange stars;
Discovering divine destinations
Far beyond!
The limits of my being;
Preparing for when
Truth's Enlightenment
Takes me into the place
That only exists outside
The safety and comfort
Of sanity and logic.
& though I’ve been given
About 100 years for traveling,
I’ve approached final destination
In merely a quarter of rationed time.
Whatever the hell it is you want to call
I have Certainty I've experienced
Spiritual fulfillment/
Self-realization/
Enlightenment/
Inner Peace/
Awareness/
Paradise/
Nirvana/
Heaven/
Love/
God/
Whatever name of Whö
§he calls Her §elf
I've experienced
~Perfection~
To study
~Perfection~
To understand
~Perfection~
To experience
~Perfection~
~Perfection~
B unmistakable;
A change N being;
True Metamorphosis.
You are certain;
Of yourself, and of
Your purpose N the cocoon
Known as Truth's root reality.
My ØИΣ & only goal now B nearly achieved;
I Am approaching ñü∿enlightenment;
Sharing N the presence öF
~Perfection~
So, I may soon break from Samsara's cycle
Lest an ironic enlightened revelation:
About how easily; about how quickly;
I'd trade it all & more for Her.
I would suffer through ∞ lifetimes;
Lifetimes seeped
N suffering & uncertainty,
If only for a chance;
Her beauty, again, before me.
Such Beauty! Born from infinity;
Beauty beyond the universe, surpassing
~Perfection~
Funny;
Maybe frustrating;
I’ve found the answers to God
Before even nearing an answer to Her.
How can something be greater;
Be more complex than a godcomplex;
Be everything and more than infinity?
Than all of reality and whatever beyond?
I don’t know If I’ll ever be able
To answer that ØИΣ question;
To answer Whö is beyond
~Perfection~
I don’t know if I'll
Ever again or even can
Experience Whö surpasses
~Perfection~
But, at least I have
A ñü∿answer to look for;
A ñü∿goal to strive towards;
A ñü∿mystery inspiring Me to be.
☯
For five years of this folie à deux,
I’ve been trying to figure out
How to get Her back.
But finally I realize,
That cannot be controlled;
Because I cannot control Her,
And I don’t want to control Her;
As that’s what makes Her incredible,
§he’s uncontrollable.
I cannot control
My feelings for Her;
Nor can I control
Her feelings for me;
But no matter my Fate,
I can control my happiness.
I finally have agency
Over my existence;
I finally have §erenity.
☯
Far too long
Rejecting
My §oul having been torn;
No longer neglected;
Accepting
~Perfection~
{Original: Acceptance – Submitting To Perfection | [* May 2020 *]}
For five years, I’ve been trying to figure out how to get her back.
But I’ve finally realized that I can’t control that.
Because I can’t control her; that’s why I love her so much.
I have finally accepted that
I truly want you.
I’ve explored galaxies and beyond.
And although my discoveries and experiences have brought me to incredible destinations,
destinations far beyond the limits of my being,
nothing has quite compared.
I’ve experienced self-realization/enlightenment/spiritual fulfillment/nirvana/heaven/god/paradise/whatever the hell you want to call.
Whatever name it goes by, I have experienced perfection.
Experiencing perfection changes your life – no your very being – in a indescribable way.
Not only are you certain of yourself,
but also of the cocoon of existence known as our reality.
As a philosopher, my one true calling – my purpose for the gift of life and consciousness – is to experience perfection.
To be able to describe perfection.
To prepare me for whatever may exist outside the safety and comfort of sanity and logic.
And although I’ve been given 100 years to achieve this,
I’ve accomplished this goal in a quarter of the time.
But even though I have achieved my goal,
if only partially,
the most enlightening revelation I’ve had is how easily and how quickly I would trade it all for her.
We are trapped in our existence until our goal is achieved,
cursed in the painful cycle of trial and fail.
We strive for enlightenment,
since that is the only way to break from the cycle.
But I would be more than willing to suffer through many lifetimes of pain,
if only for the chance to experience her beautiful perfection once again.
I don’t know how to describe it,
but she has somehow surpassed perfection.
I don’t know if I find it funny or frustrating,
but somehow I’ve found the answers to God before the answers to her.
How can something be greater,
be more complex,
be everything and more than infinity?
Than all of reality and beyond?
I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to answer that question,
but at least I have a new answer to look for;
a goal to strive towards;
a mystery to inspire.
And with that I have finally accepted this feeling.
This neglected part of my soul.
I can finally admit it:
I still love her and I want her more than anything else this world or beyond can offer.
I have rejected this feeling for far too long,
and my soul has been torn because of it.
But now that I have accepted this aspect of my being,
I can finally heal.
But even more importantly,
I can grow.
Although I want her more than anything,
I now actually believe that I don’t need her.
I have been given time,
and it will be spent regardless of her.
I’ve found my purpose.
I’ve answered my calling;
my mission;
my vocation.
If I died today,
I would rest peacefully,
knowing that I have achieved fulfillment from life.
Even so,
I’ve decided not to give up.
I don’t know if I’ll ever be with her again;
if I’ll ever again experience that which has surpassed perfection.
But if it does happen, I know this:
I am not here because fate decided what is best.
I am here because I’ve decided for myself.
Fate cannot be ignored or rejected,
but it can be overcome and surpassed.
And in reaching this conclusion,
I finally have agency over my existence.
I finally have serenity.
♡Sugar☆World☮ 