Not Even A Speck

Not allowed to express myself 
To release my anger 
Without scaring someone 
Because they think I'm crazy 

And I'm not allowed to have a bad day 
Without someone calling my doctor 
So, no wonder I never speak 
When I'm feeling so weak 

I guess I shoulda kept quite 
This morning when I was mourning 
The death of what comfort I had left 
I cannot show my self, not even a speck