My Only Company

Why have I been so lonely lately?

Nothing has really changed

I still can’t see the one person I want

So why is it weighing heavier right now?

Is it the holidays?

I know New Year’s is coming up

And once again, I won’t have anyone to kiss when the ball drops

Oh well

That might be a part of it, but I think there’s more

Like how I saw some old friends recently

And I don’t know when I’ll see them again

But the thing is

I was still feeling lonely when I was with them

Maybe I’ve been lonely for so long

It’s all I know how to be anymore

And being around the few people that used to not make me feel lonely

Only to get lost in my Loneliness again, even with them

So, I guess I don’t really know what to do

Or why I’m even writing this

I guess I’m just so lonely

That the voice that I hear when writing my words

Is the only company that I have left