What could you try for the first time?
Forgetting Again [Red]
I'm forgetting
Again, and soon
It will not even
Be possible 2 see
Anything, becoming
Scary being trapped
Every time it's scary, but
Every time also gets easier
Easier 2 process, this panic
Though, much more importantly
Easier 2 REMember, exactly why
§he really is worth it - always
[12 October 2023]
Might As Well [Orange]
I feel so confused
So lost
Spinning in the dark
Uncertain about everything
Well, almost everything - I
REMember being certain
About something
Just a couple days ago
I was oh~so confident then &
Even though it feels so far away
Might as well trust Me from the past
About whatever I was oh~so certain about
[14 October 2023]
Dumb Again [Yellow]
I guess I'm dumb again
I forget everything
& no one tells me what's going on
I don't like what I write
It's so ugly
Compared to everyone else's
[14 October 2023]
Saw Your Face [Green]
I dreamed about You last night
You were -§till- oh~so far away
But close enough 2 see your face
Every night - I get closer to You
& Someday soon, I will be with You
[13 October 2023]
(Untitled): [Blue]
Even when it feels good
It still feels far away
Sometimes, feelings get cancer
After being cold
Why am I so sad?
Every time I go to do something
Anything
I burst out crying
There isn’t a real reason for me to be sad
So it has me worried
I hope §he’s ok
It’s happening again
The tears
They just keep coming
Scary dreams
[11-14 October 2023]
Senseless Sadness (So It Goes) [Indigo]
Blinded so sudden by tears
Sobbing so loud you can't hear
Nor smell your dirty clothes, for
A snotty nose, no tissue, this blows
Tasting mucus going down your throat
Trying to hold your self together
So that nobody knows your woes
& just saying "So it goes"
[15 October 2023]
Out Of My Mind / Projection Of My Reflection [Violet]
Why does Weird stuff only happen
When I'm out of my mind?
Shotty wifi, flickering lights
A colorful haze covering my camera
How am I supposed to prove hauntings
When I'm busy questioning my sanity?
Maybe it happens when out of my mind
Because the ghost I see is really Me
So what do I mean that it's really Me
Somehow messing with the electricity?
One's Mind's an illusion of confusion
& now manifesting to stand next to Me
Becoming the projection of my reflection
Like a §weet séance, transcendent trance
A §oul's confession, §elf study sessions
For finally then learning Life's lessons
[15 October 2023]
Update [Pink]
I'm feeling better today
But would not say good
So maybe my little spell
"Might as well" worked
[15 October 2023]
♡Sugar☆World☮ 