A Conversation With ADHD (Painful When My Brain’s Full)


Having become unbound~N~§weet sound

Now no longer limited like collector’s editions

Nor found anywhere near nor around the ground

Cutting ties and so I never have to be tethered again

Blue eyes N§ide skies, floating like feathered friends

Who sing birdsong tunes for all to consume, though

Whispering  their secrets into my ears & revealing

To Me, unimpressive pedestrian #3 in this scene

The recipe 4 immortality & conferring keys 2

A lock You will never hear nor see, as I Am

Being a cock tease so end my story abruptly

Leaving you with no closure, losing composure

Coming at Me for exposure like photography yet

Forgetting what the hell were we even talking about

Nor what led to the spout or even where we’re going

Because I have ADHD and if You want to have a real

Conversation with Me, good luck with this fuck up

’cause the mess N Me causes Calamity when trying

2 concentrate on either fulfilling or defying Fate &

At any rate, what’s the point of this date? I guess

It’s kinda become a gate to my garden N my soul

Where I keep hold of ñü∿Truth told 2 Me by Whö

Created not only Me & You, but each & every ØИΣ

öF Ü growing N2 another Whö B able 2 manifest

Not only ñü∿Time & §trange §pace hidden N§ide

öF your face, but also can breathe Life N2 animals &

Other things like rocks & plants, means being capable

Of cultivating their own Eternity Tree, thus creating

A brand ñü∿Reality after realizing Transcendence

Affected his stance & the fact they were now lost

N France with zero chance of ever traveling any

Way other than tangentially leading to infinity

Strands of unfinished stories & so hopefully

Your understanding of exactly why I struggle

Staying on task and finishing anything because

ADHD is a real thing & please let this show all Ü

That I’m not being lazy & understand why it drives

Me 2 N§anity turning Me Crazy while spinning focus

Continuously, so dizzy, nausea & stomach aching yet

No doctor can diagnose Me, my gut problem B

A medical mystery, lucky me, fuck ADHD &

Realize when I have dazed eyes, it’s because

ADHD is painful, truly, like my brain on overdrive

Trying to decide if I want coffee or Chai only to then

Forget what I was doing & just hoping against hope

I’m accomplishing something with this Madman’s

Word vomit, don’t rebuke Me for puking, I guess

Some people never grow up, so may the horse

Be with you, that’s a reference you probably

Won’t get, but I don’t give a shit, I lost my mind

Like 29 lines ago as I continue to throw up words

‘Til there’s nothing left in my brain and I can pretend

To be sane again, if only for this miniscule moment

Just long enough that I at least get to write a thesis

Statement about how messy B my mental state then

Extend the end so I can send it to family & friends

Then recognition this B good timing 2 finally end


[Fun Fact: This Poem Is 521 Words Long]

I’m not certain how this relates, but figured it would be rude to just ignore Fate merely because I could not yet unlock the Question Garden’s gate, leading deep N§ide Mind to the Answer of internal debate.

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