There & Back Again, Again and Again / Abbacchio’s Abnegation (Where White Rabbits Wander)

Easter Bunny’s Ascension (Yellow Snow & Purple Rain)

Λnswer [Abbacchio Ascending Edition]


I really hope I didn’t waste our time together

I know I am moody like the weather

And being bipolar means

My climate isn’t any better

So you have to wear layers

If you wanna be prepared to play here

So just make sure You bring a sweater

Or a cardigan – ‘Cause I’m chilly at first

So you’re gonna need to keep heat

N§ide öF Me, away from freezing

Rain – flannel’s a good beginning

Good enough to become mine

Second skin but once spring ends

And I’ve warmed up to my new friends

I just hope changing my clothes won’t expose

My twisted toes, nor BO that flows

Through your nose, gross – I Am

Most of May’s mess, stress

From becoming less

Of a man, of Me, of… of….

Of anything other than an Absurdity

Like I’m a trace of Bowie’s Space ÖDDity

Logically I know my thinking B flawed

As a dropped call that falls like

Niagara – horseshoes for luck &

Hand grenades when close counts

Although viagra for a guarantee

Hards Times R coming & Calamity

Is certain to be the end of “Me”

Soon Ü will C Whö I Am really

So pulling back around after

Getting lost N suburban sound

And revisiting the fear I’ve been

Lamenting – my Time 2 B alive

Felt dead on arrival – fuck thriving

Survival was the best I could strive for

My mirror was my rival, filling my cup

With denial – sure she’s taking forever

To respond, but maybe she’s using

Dial-up, that’s easier to believe

Than the Truth – §he really does hate Me

and I know better than anyone – nothing

Good comes from someone trying

To break a corundum Conundrum

Using tools made of brittle bones

Drained, like Me – empty, even

My marrow was taken by Pharaoh

So though I know where Bo should go

I’m walking the thinnest line – thin

Enough 2 make the straight & narrow

Feel like walking down one of LA’s

16 lane highways that’s empty

So I’m becoming a 1 man parade

Making faces & changing places

Like a game of charades played N May

Money’s on the game – your eyes on Fame

Yet unsure you will make the grade

Because even though I know I Am Great

The Greatest, even – not so sure ’bout my mate

His flow can best be described as “No. Just no.”

It goes like lumber from Lowes or Home Depot

& his timing blows like industrial fans that R

Spinning 2 Nfinity & causing a commotion

‘Cause how crappy my complexion be

No amount of lotion will ever be able

To heal my leprosy, what a crazy notion

Though when a catalyst puts Me N2 motion

Like a Rube Goldberg machine made by Green

Be meaning there be a rude surge of profanity

Fuck Poetry & fuck Me, I Am nothing, though

I can’t quit mid-season with my contract

Fack – broken like glass, smashed &

Pass, shoot & alley-oop – missed

Embarrassing as when having

2 go out N2 the Valley: poop

Is runny, shit – or rather

Diarrhea – flows outta

Ü even without Blue

Or any of his clues

I just need 2 lace up

My favorite pair of

Nikes on my feet

Keep my cypher complete

Ni-Ni-Nik-Nik-Nik-Nik-Nik-Nikes

On my feet, keep my cypher complete

Ni-Ni-Nik-Nik-Nik-Nik-Nik-Nikes

‘Til Adidas makes me dream

All day about a Latin 6

Come on bitch, let’s C

Just what kind of tricks

$5 dollar whores can stick

Wood is stiff, and so am I

& So sick of patiently waiting

While masturbating – I need

My dick licked, and quick

Stat! You fat bitch, wait

Your turn, I’ll make so hot

It burns like my wick is sick

But that’s not it, Mic – really

It be a case of supply &

Demand and the correlation

Between lack of lubrication

And force of friction when I

Stick it in – not pretend

Balls deep, walls weep

As I conclude this ensemble

Full of illusions you only get a peep

Yet will eventually be inherited

By the meek – I Am not weak

More like a bucket with a leak

Or a farfetch’d walking with a leek

How both can still function, yet form is

Fucked, deformed like the ugly duckling

Lucky Me, no wonder no one wants to

Fuck Me – I Am disgusting at sluts

Eyeing me up at truck stop, gas

Station elation as hip gyration

Now causing rider rotation

You go, cowgirl, reverse it

Like you’re riding me N cursive

Don’t be nervous, even if I bust

Doesn’t mean I’m done – I actually

Like eating my pizza crust – don’t waste

Any part of Her – so with every thrust

Watch the blood rush to her face

Making her blush, red like rust

‘Cause even if Love Lost &

Becoming cold as frost

Know I’ll never B

Frozen over by

Summer Snow

Since even when

Love B acting sus – I am

Dumb enough 2 believe N Lust

And respond with only a shush

When you tell me to cool it

Like a cotton candy slush

From Burger King since

Sweet’s tooth B Proof

Of my Youth – Truth

Of the matter B that

The reason I am talking

To you about something so

§weet since I Am too afraid of

Seeking audience with D. Queen

After moving to Morioh where

She kills me – leaving behind

Nothing but the Gold Dust

Blown N the wind as I try & hit

Send, said friend N a gift to ammend

Troubled trends that send broken men

Home Alone, living in a brick house

‘Til feeling HIM blow through Ü to

Otherside of Blue’s water slide

I just really wanna have this

Genuine experience like

A necromancer with

No sense of taste or

Smell – like Hell, so

Rotten eggs ∿ sulphuric

How do I make it work? Fire

& brimstone are found

N Me, meaning I Am

Who I Am meant 2

B – the ñü∿ØИΣ

Sent by the Sun

After she Lost HIM

Again & again & then

After the 3rd Time, mine

Rymes were fine, but not

ÖF Good☯Design, though

I Am inclined to try & mine

Your mind & C if I can adapt

My N§ide’s style floating all

Around N§ide vibration &

Thus sounding like I’m

Van Hohenheim and

Now bringing me

Back to Earth

Wondering

Where I

Ended

After

Floating

So far away

From my 1st name

I’ve never felt the same

Though REMembering now

How sad he seems when I’m

& singing about how much

Fun Alchemy is, like I’m

Trying to sell my school

Back to the KIDS Whö

Dropped out without

Even a shout, ’cause

This is the End, so

My friend & No

I have so much

More money than

God – I hold Red’s Rod

Ready to install my mods

As I stall a ball N Tally Hall

So don’t stall & go pick up

His call while window

Shopping for koffing

While wheezing

From air pollution

Produced by industrial

Institutions full of confusions

Caused by Real Illusions manifesting

N§ide öF signs sent N§ide the movement

Now time to prove 2 them that I Am

Whö I say I Am, & then agreeing

No matter how innocent it is

My intention will always B

Questioned by HIM when

Finally found N the End

No longer playing pretend

Send my condolences and lend

My time, I’m flexible & can bend

To accommodate bizarre trends

Though approaching the End

Again – another time for Me

To meet my final end, then

Waking up N one of them

When again I forget Whö

I Am really when I’m not

Just a Self-reflection of

A pyrite projection &

Nor a rejection, but

Like misdirection

Like an erection

With an infection

That I claim I covered

With latex protection yet

Cover blown after my eruption

N her rump, what gumption

Especially since A was Her

Final destination of 3

After her demonstration

Of just how much suction

Can cause me to lose function

Of junctions where I’m supposed

To get off, but why when I can just

Tell Her to take Her top off and

Then give me a sponge bath

Only using Her titties

Before visiting Her

Shaved kitty who

Already B quivering

At just my approaching

The way she squirms

I can tell I’m gonna

Make Her cum before

She even feels me, entering

Hey flower garden, pink as power

Prepares the scene for a queen looking

For someone Whö can really tell

Get the job done – I’m him

& I specialize N trim

So get ready for your head

To spin whenever I give her head

Each and every day until I Am Dead

Because if I had to choose a place

To die by drowning – her bed

Would be my dream home

Where I wanna bury

My bones N Her

As she moans like

Carrie Fischer wearing

Little more than her face

Graced by body traced

Of Aphrodite, riding

Me – experiencing

My lovemaking

Mighty right

I ride night

Night like

Squeeze

Through

Oh Fuck

She’s so

Tight

Flying

High as kites

As though I don’t

Remember my name

I still hold the frame, so

Just need to keep peddling

This bike,  those drugs, and

Some guns, let’s go get 1

Before I TEMember

How this poem

Began N Fear

So how did

White Rabbit

End up back here?


336: abnegation

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