Bleach On Black Turns Orange
A Quick TRyP 2 Hell N’Back
I thought it would B good 2 mention N’ this 3Dition: I never actually took Xanax – I had the generic: Ativan
What A coincidence Ey3 happened 2 CüM upon Under The Cork Tree
I Am guessing this is the 7 minute Hair∿Dryer from Uriel
Ey3 can’t believe Ü never noticed B’4, KiD – It even features my Panic! Brendon
I’ve never tried to kill myself
But I will tell you the closest I came
Although details are vague with my memory
I can, and will, never forget that very moment
Whenever I woke up after straddling Death’s bull
Who threw Me off & then knocked out all thought
& so, here I go – the moment I believe I died
For real, N§ide of my reality’s causality
It was a few years ago – 5, 6 years
Maybe 7 – but that’s irrelevant
I think I can REMember it
Being on Thanksgiving (ironic)
But I may be mixing up another episode
So let’s say for now – on November 24, 201X
I decided to take the rest of my Xanax I had
Maybe 9-12 pills, forget the dosage, then
Drink until I passed out – I knew
Alcohol and Xannies don’t mix
Even though I had been for a while
Though only small doses since – I knew
How dangerous it was, but I was so angry
Yet, not enough to kill myself – only leave it
Up to my body and up to my Fate – either I’d wake
Or everyone else would’ve had to live with my mistake
So, a win-win for Me, at least that’s what Misery told Me
Now to make this long story short – I took the pills and
Drank a bunch of beer, maybe some liquor, and then
Went out for a walk, maybe – possibly mixing up
Another Thanksgiving where I nearly lost it
For some reason, that’s a hard day for Me
Rather, hard days seem to happen then
Well, anyway, back to the main course
About what happened when on course
Well – nothing happened, at least nothing
That I can REMember, as my next memory be Me
Waking up, in my bed, confused – what’d I just do?
I couldn’t REMember anything after downing them, but
I was being haunted by a feeling quite similar to
When being scolded by a parent, or maybe
Guardian – an angel watching over Me
Furious – enough to spit hellfire
For what I had just done to myself, so
I don’t know if He kept my heart beating
Or rather reset my evening after committing
My second greatest sin, again – I will explain
It another Time – whatever, either way – I knew
That was something I could never let my self do
So, never refilled my Xanny prescription after
Which sucked – my anxiety now crushing Me
But Ünderstanding – no matter how heavy
This was my consequence, bestowed
Upon Me by Divinity, so whether
An angel or the King öF kings – I
Wasn’t going to risk my Eternity, again
By disobeying and doubling down on my sin
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I’ve never tried to kill myself
But I’ll tell you the closest I came to
The details are vague with my memory
Though, I can & will never forget the moment
When I woke up after straddling Death’s bull
Who threw Me off and knocked out all thought
So, here I go – the moment I believe I died
For real, N§ide my reality’s causality
It was a few years ago – 5 or 6 years
Maybe 7 – but that’s irrelevant
I think I can REMember it
Being on Thanksgiving (ironic)
But I may be mixing up another episode
So let’s say for now – on November 24, 2017
I decided to take the rest of my Xanax I had
Maybe 9-12 pills, forgot the dosage, then
Drink until I passed out – I knew
Alcohol & Xannies don’t mix
Even though I had been for awhile
Though only small doses because – I knew
How dangerous it would be, but I was angry
But not enough to kill myself – only to leave it
Up to my body & up to my Fate – either I’d wake
Or everyone else would have to live with my mistake
A lose-lose for Me, at least that’s what Misery told Me
So, to make this long story short – I took the pills, then
Drank a bunch of beer, maybe some liquor, & then
Went out for a walk, maybe – possibly mixing up
Another Thanksgiving where I nearly lost it
For some reason, that’s a hard day for Me
Or rather, hard days tend to happen then
Well, anyway, back to the main course
About what happened when on course
Well – nothing happened, at least nothing
I can REMember – as my next memory be Me
Waking up in my bed, confused – what’d I just do?
I couldn’t REMember anything after downing them
But I was haunted by a feeling quite similar to
When being scolded by a parent, or maybe
Guardian – an angel watching over Me
Furious enough to spit hellfire
For what I had just done to myself, so
I don’t know if He kept my heart beating
Or rather reset my evening after committing
My second greatest sin, again – I’ll explain that
Another Time – whatever, either way – I knew
That was something I could never let myself do
So I never refilled my Xanax prescription after
Which sucked – my anxiety now crushing Me
But Ünderstanding – no matter how heavy
This was my consequence, bestowed
Upon Me by Divinity, so whether
An angel or the King öF kings – I
Wasn’t going to risk my Eternity, again
By disobeying & doubling down on my sin
♡Sugar☆World☮ 