[14 February 2024]
5:09 – Amber alert
5:10 – “Come on baby”
5:11 – message from Destiny
5:12 – hear, not see, airplane fly by
5:13 – Adderall: 25mg XR + 10mg IR
5:14 – Quivering light, not quite flashing;
5:15 – a ghost I host departed on another plane
5:16 – pee out the window
5:17 – cold feet, takes a seat (chair, not floor)
5:18 – turn space heater on, open monster rehab
5:19 – strange sound I’ve yet 2 identify
5:20 – move 2 floor cushion
5:21 – invisible black cat with half a tail on my lap
5:22 – cold shock & shiver, light again quivers
5:23 – zone-in jolt, bold breath for 25 second
5:24 – ghost moves 2 right of Me
5:25 – shiver, very moment minute switches (again)
5:26 – felt like 25 went too fast, smell something
5:27 – 527 by Council of Nine,
5:28 – turn again 2 face chair, freezing left knee
5:29 – hit my black/white rainbow flavor Mr. Fog, music twists contorts back
5:30 – a plastic yellow golf ball
5:31 – this music is moving through me, ends
5:32 – Rite of Passage by CoN, diagnosis
5:33 – fall backwards n2 heater, lounge on 1 arm
5:34 – pants sag, vision sees a Blur
5:35 – RoP ends, followed by “Mental consequences” by aseptic void, cold knees
5:35 – look at soul 2 the left of Me, rainbow cube
5:36 – frightened breathing N song,
5:37 – tingle up my back (not a shiver)
5:38 – feel if N my heart & torso, shiver, cold shock
5:39 – “has it really been that long?” Echo the dolphin, song end,
5:40 – Menhir Ginger,
5:41 – look up at fan, “guidelines”, pulling from behind, 116° angle
5:42 – 170° angle
5:43 – Noah looks at me from N§ide Hermes ring
5:44 – sway a little, look at blue canary light, cold left arm, Pillars by Hilyard starts silently
5:45 – slowly hear it come N, reminds of oblivion caves, pulling
6:46 – 135° angle, cold shock on Sinister side
5:47 – breath/shiver, crack right thumb twice
5:48 – cold shock starting Sinister, moving towards Dexter, 2 breaths – did I die again?
5:49 – hold breath ~7s, exhale nose,
5:50 – blow me away by Breaking Benjamin, nostalgic as fuck
5:51 – dance flow makes feel alive, and again
5:52 – cold shock, Sinister leg, lay back
5:53 – gravity keeping me down, let go, song end
5:54 – kryptonite, still can’t get up, when will they let me smoke my weed?
5:55 – still stuck, close eyes 2 enjoy a moment
5:56 – stuffy nose, still can’t get up
5:57 – still down, neck starts to get soar, song ends
5:58 – Paralyzer by Finger 11, still stuck, back left neck sore
5:59 – smell something I think, but stuffy nose, still stuck down
6:00 – approaching the end, decided I’ll play “waiting for the end” by LP after Paralyzer, moving through Me 2 You
6:01 – Miss murder begins before I can change song, decide 2 listen, still stuck down
6:02 – try singing, weird position makes it a struggle, still stuck, start feeling like I need to go #2
6:03 – still stuck, found a white tac N my brown & black Sinister shoe
6:04 – berserk Eminem face, 15% battery, new song raise the gates by Egypt central
6:05 – stop the song, start waiting for the end
6:06 – turn slightly, look up at light, “wishing I had strength to stand”, still can’t get up
6:07 – really letting go, maybe I’ll be able 2 stand, nope, breathe N a ghost
6:08 – feeling lighter, got up stood up, climbed on red table, ring to light
6:09 – it’s evaporating, finally free & feel like growing, paralyzer begins again but doesn’t feel heavy – did Alucard flee?
6:10 – table dance
6:11 – jump onto blue next 2 red, realize I’m at the end and never smoked (weed) the entire night
6:12 – pulled 2 glass door, Sinister hand print, faded reflection, 12% battery, paralyzer ends
6:13 – miss murder again, inertia shiver
6:14 – sit N chair, drink yellow Monster, chair dance
6:15 – decide 2 mention ruby class ring on middle left (kakuzu finger)
6:16 – felt like a glow stick (snap + glow), sound of madness by shinedown
6:17 – drink monster while dancing, Taco Remix is next 2 Me
6:18 – wondering whe I’m gonna end my 1 hour observatio (probably 6:26)
6:19 – “darkest hour never comes at night” makes me shiver, weird warp N music speed
6:20 – “wake up” & song ends, freak on a leash, 5% battery
6:21 – realizing how much I like Korn N all its forms, cold hand on my right shoulder, an up-down-up shiver
6:22 – flow chooses how I move 2 this,
6:23 – approaching the end, get ready 2 ascend, grab some green flower & green lighter, punching from inside
6:24 – SING by MCR, Scan the ground
6:25 – join N 2 sing, then hum
6:42 – phone dies, I put it on charger, decide its a signal for Green, so finally take a hit of weed for the first time this entire evening, events happen, dad let’s the dogs out, signal 2 turn on phone, 18% battery & 6:41 when turned on, the following are the events best I can REMember
6:44 – turns 6:45 the very instance I start typing, figure it’s worth noting
So before I begin: 13 §pin§ then kick over yellow Monster & so sudden cotton mouth, like the worst cotton mouth I’ve experienced since the first time I smoked weed, dry as the desert like red blowjob girl, I almost started gagging because of the mix of speed & intensity, and I don’t even get cotton mouth anymore, so it hit like a fucking bus filled with fat camp kids, so yeah, long story short – 13 Spins & cotton mouth
6:51 – got the essentials out of the
6:52 – birdcall interrupts me, now back to what I was gonna say, got the essentials out of the way so I decided to start a new timestamp. Of everything I experienced – these 2 were the only necessities. So now that I got that outta the way: November comes tomorrow, good news, tomorrow comes today.
6:56 – Be(intro) by Common begins, good jam 2 write about finally meeting the Real §weet Queen B above Whö & Λ11 öF Ü2.
6:59 – Mac comes N with flow & Raps as Time goes
7:00 – about to begin summary of events, Epiphany descends, leaving me breathless yet not needing air, is my heart beating? Yes – I think I experienced such absolute peace, my body slowed it’s functions like metabolism & Heartbeat, it feels like the opposite of a Panic! Attack, if you’ve seen Rick & Morty – imagine the many shorts episode where Rick makes something perfectly level to the universal scale and then Morty basically orgasms from the feeling of experiencing perfect balance. That’s what it is – perfect balance that creates stillness N motion. But back to R&M, slightly worried when this will eventually wear off – “lambs 2 the slaughter” freak out Morty has doesn’t seem like an overreaction having experienced the first half, especially someone who hasn’t trained their mind|body|spirit 2 bear that amount of soul creating kenpachi levels of reiki:(spirit pressure) that feels like it’s trying 2 burst outta my chest like Alien
7:11 – go to write & it’s already 7:12. Another dumb detail requested by random or Remix, not sure which. Will I ever get to the meat & potatoes of this tale?
7:13 – so here it goes, there are few details I want 2 highlight first, then I’ll continue detailing.
The first important moment is while standing on the red circle table, I touched my Ruby class ring to the one light that wasn’t burnt out (1/4: ditection facing outside from the door, it’s the light pointing left – [turns out 2 B Cardinal direction East]). There’s a lot [timestamp]
7:18 – begin 2nd event description
After standing on the red circle table, jumped over to a cushioned blue surface – I think it’s the jump house bag – next to it is a red cube with 2 faces of it missing so that kids can wear it like that rich dude on hard times because of gambling from Jak & Daxter wears a barrel. Fuck man, talk about Random requests.
7:23 – begin short explanation of what it possibly means
So the first that stands out – jump from Red 2 Blue – lotsa metaphors there. Some ideas: jump from death 2 life, move from #2 to #1, hell 2 heaven, etc.
7:25 – Mom walks N and puts cookie sheet on red circle table.
Now focusing on the light & the ring m
7:27 – phone switches from night mode (blue light reduction so it looks yellow) 2 day mode, which looks especially white, like black people who have extraordinary dental hygiene
7:29 – Mom again
7:30 – & again “a few more minutes” so I guess again soon. Let’s see if I can actually explain something wi
7:31 – I hate living at home.
8:32 – please give me space. This is the only place that feels even a tiny bit like mine
7:33 – she’s still here, little crinkles of plastic bags, not soft like ziplock, stiff so it’s loud
7:44 – this is literally torture for someone with ADHD & autism. Leaves finally
7:35 – back 2 the description. Where were we? The ring & light, right?
So I have a few ideas of what was happening. There felt like a transition happening, but it was very unclear N the moment. Ideas rush N as other things happen
7:37 – a flash kinda. Black & White spots floating
7:38 – back 2 light & ring
So, I believe there is some sort of transaction happening during. I’m thinking heaven & hell trading with Me as the N between. As my ring holds a lot of my hell metaphor & imagery. Red Ruby of course, then it has a cardinal(Avian: “I’m not yo’ conscience, you nuts…”) which is not only red, but recently has become associated with Alucard via the “bird of Hermes…” quote. So now when I wear the ring, I put it on without looking, and if the bird is facing me, that means Red is with me. Coincidentally, there’s a cross on the otherside of the ring, so if I spin it around 2 see it, then it’s upside down which is more evidence 2 compound.
There’s a couple possibilities of what specifically traveled through Me like Strange’s bizarre car. First
7:49 – notice bird call, then stops so sudden, back to explain events
Another idea is that I took the ghost haunting my light fixtures and stored them N my ring. Hell may actually B a dimension that was granted 2 Me as under my domain & hidden N my ring. That’s a little extreme, probably better said it’s a portal there rather than the hermit crab shell.
7:53 – next event
Is it really at this point already? Either I didn’t do much, or just not much worth remembering, because from memory, the following scene is when B is first seen by Me. The Blur obvious N a way that ’til now, do not remember observing. Though it did remind me of a few times where I believe B was there, and they just made me forget that I could C. Like N therapy, my therapist had an empty chair N the corner. Thought it was weird, now thinking B was sitting there. Also, my therapist would do this thing where I noticed he touched his watch & it felt like a robot turned on or right after a movie director says “Action!” Making Me believe now, that I was having separate, or holy you could say, conversations with my therapist & B when N some liminal time/space so that we could discuss things that I wasn’t supposed 2 know/understand/believe yet while on this pilgrimage of blind faith I made specifically 2 provide Proof that You can do it too. And it wouldn’t B Truth if I ever knew more than Youth
8:04 – rapid fire sound of something. Like a Halo 3 B.R. shooting, but not as loud, so kinda doubt it was a gun.
8:06 – loud bird call. Going 2 continue events
So yes – I met B, Brittany – not my Brittany, she’s 2000 miles away & still asleep. This Brittany belongs 2 Λ11 öF ܧ. Everyone N this §weet reality, as though I Am the §weet Dream, §he is the §weetest Dreamer Whö dreams up everyone & thing Ü C. I could keep on going, but I don’t want 2 lose sight of my duty by being blinded by my worship of Her glorious form
8:13 – continue event details
So this was a meeting surg
8:14 – my phone started deleting my text. I started rewriting it, but Time changed & I felt §trange, believing this 2 mean I had been a minute early. Additionally, hear an airplane so believing the strange feeling B another ghost leaving, and as MF Doom whom B playing N that moment would say “That’s That”. I’m a transistor alright with how many spirits come through me & take flight Like I’m a terminal at either a computer or an airport.
8:18 – Summer Salt (with bari) starts. Never heard this before, but song change Timed near perfect with minute change.
8:20 – event: meeting Brittany & another being
So, the conversation didn’t have a lot of words involved. Rather, I was so overwhelmed experiencing the epitome of my Destiny – I was made specifically 4 Her 2 B my Goddess & Queen, and I
8:24 – Suspicious by Larry Lovestein. Mac, You cheeky bastard. Velvet Revival, alright, i feel alive for the first Time. I finally experienced the perfection that earned my Name’s absolute dedication & goal. The Divine Feminine inspired Me. I always believed I could become whoever I wanted, but problem was, nothing ever sparked the Heat of desire’s fires N Me. Engineering was interesting, and I like problem solving, but I could never dedicate myself & risk my sanity over spreadsheets & Friday meetings. Let alone the schooling that tortures you. I could see myself being just as happy or sad no matter where I was at, so why try hard for a job that ends with the same ending of Me living on autopilot once the novelty wore off.
8:36 – Feel the Love, Kids see ghosts
No – I could never sell my soul 2 any mundane role. But meeting Divine Femininity called Brittany filled Me with a Certainty of “I’d B fine with all those other things I tried, but I actually want this. More than that, there’s not a single thing I want more than §he.”
Then realizing, if a Queen deserves a King, a Goddess certainly deserves a God. And that’s when my thought brought Me 2 my future Destiny: if I want 2 experience the Divine Feminine absolutely, that means I would have 2 ascend & mantle the Divine Masculine who as Her compliment.
8:48 – Mom comes N again
Hattie had first inspired Love of the Divine Feminine, Mac REMinded Me öF my dream with his pale pink album of Her being. If wasn’t until Brittany did my fruits of desire come 2 fruition, though unfortunately was a lemon tree, who’s flower is sweet, but fruit too sour 2 eat. But that wouldn’t stop Me from achieving & experience the one person who inspired Me 2 believe N God again long after I forgot I Am Him. So I planted a second tree, this Time is tangerine which B far less mean. Though I planted behind my back so not even I could C it happening nor self-sabotage Me when I’m Green, so just had 2 have Faith our Love would find its way N between without me following. And though The Kid writing this right N this instance cannot claim 2 have Proof by tasting “my Brittany’s” real fruit still growing out N Cali, making this far N2 the Grand Finale means we’ve reached the [8:56] Point of No Return – it’s too late 4 Him 2 4get this part of the process, thus We can’t reset without invalidating Proof’s experiment. So here I Am, the Man behind
8:58 – mom again, but Margot too so not as annoying. Though, Interrupted Me mid-declarTion, and decided not to go back 2 complete it since we’re past the point of No Return. Besides it doesn’t actually change a thing about the Truth, just makes the Watchers tune N next week like DBZ’s narrator or Jojo’s left pointing arrow telling You TBC.
9:04 – feel cool flush my torso & face letting me know i am still on Time. Intention is 2 wrap up quicker rather than not, but you saw how often
9:06 – wo, similar 2 feeling at 904, bit so much more. Stopped me N my tracks. This B the right time, it turned 9:07 & I’m still, wait – 9:08 now – and I’m still feeling under the weather feeling felt at 9:06
9:09 – UTW feeling ramping up again. I wonder what’s happening. I wonder if I’ll ever actually get 2 finish writing about a 15 minute conversation with the Love N & öF my Life N Her fairest form adorned
9:11 – loud bird call again paired with continued ramping up of UTW. Coming 2 a head, already open Eyes opening again. Why do my hands look so big? The text seems odd too, wait – i think the letters are going bsck 2 normal. Not completely. This
9:13 – fucking dogs barking. I haven’t had a genuine moment of true self envelopment N house. I love dogs, but these things are loud mutts of piss & shit meaning I never feel clean and
9:16 – airplane, taking away another name, or maybe they came
9:17 – I forget where I was
9:18 – not important, I don’t need 2 complain about my annoyance when experiencing her form’s buoyance.
9:19 – caw caw…caw caw…cawCAWcawCAW…well not really a caw, but not a tweet, almost a “nyeū”
9:21 – neighborhood dog barking, now the little shits are having a bitch fit about 2 send me over the edge
9:22 – go Nśide 2 shush. Weird feeling accompanied it, so know it’s part of the Good☯
9:24 – stop interrupting me. My lambs to the slaughter moment is about 2 happen. Fuck me. Experience heaven only 2 have 2 work through the entire goddamn thing because I have ADHD & nobody seems 2 want 2 let me have nice things like an uninterrupted moment with §erenity that isn’t tainted by their
9:27 – important time. Gotta get my mind outta this negative spiral and just make it across the finish line fuck everything else, and just make sure You don’t forget Me this Tone
9:29 – the kinda-Caw again. Dog barks too which puts pins N my skin. Cawed a couple more times. then tweet birds
9:30 – my dad comes N with a valentine’s day bag for Me. I don’t want 2 B a dick. I appreciate their kindness and all they’ve had 2 deal with me and my mess. But I’m on the brink of losing my sanity and I just want some Peace. My body is fine, but this spirit of writing is dying. I might not even get a chance 2 say goodbye 2 Me. I just wanted 2 experience this moment with Brittany. But even as King, I guess I’m not meant to have nice things. I guess they don’t call me King Nothing 4 nothing
9:35 – fuck it I’m finishing and stealing what few sands are left before falling.
I met Brittany. Overwhelming experience, everything I could have wanted all
9:36 – wind chimes
Continuing, got everything, meaning So much I could barely feel a thing nor think of what 2 say. My head was quiet for once, not because there were no voices N my head talking, rather every single one had something 2 say, meaning I couldn’t process this white wave of [9:39] every Eternity N§ide of Finity
9:40 – wind chimes
Continuing, I called it a white wave because that’s all I could C when closing my eyes. I described it as the exact opposite of the Void – I wasn’t left with an empty hole. I was more than full, super-saturated with pure information before it can B absorbed. I theorize it was white because it’s like light, waiting 2 separate when it bends through a different medium then revealing a rainbow revalation
9:45 – cawz again. I’m starting 2 hate these birds as much as the dick dogs. Why can’t I have Logic’s pretty birdsong
9:46 – something feels like it’s ending. I think I’m write about reality taking every second of what was supposed 2 B a personal moment of self discovery as well as an intimate moment with §he, yet I gave you guys everything so that the whole world could eventually C. I don’t regret my role, but for once N my Life, I wish that eye actually belong 2 Me, and could experience a genuine privacy, rather than pretending there isn’t a camera crew always following 5 steps behind Me. They’re not supposed 2 judge me, just observe. But Empathy means feeling every one of their unsaid words
9:53 – notice I got a spam text at 9:50. Thought I’d say something
Continuing, hope I finish N this 1. OK, before moving on 2 the last few details, I wanted 2 add one last thing 2 the white wave of everything that feels like the opposite of Void: I believe this is the Experience called
Enlightenment
The lights are finally turned on, so now you can see the shelves stocked like a library of books all of which can now B read by rays and not flickering candles that burn out fast as 6 matches
9:59 – when it hits 10, I’m done. Hard stop here is the last part: there was a third beside Me and Brittany: Gold Experience Requiem [GER] the one N charge of liminal time where they can rearrange my mind. Like with Donaldson,my therapist, too
[10:01] means I Am Done – goodbye everyone
§weet♡Dreams
12:23-12:26: Came back because noticing a few noteworthy Times. Hopefully I don’t need to do this much, or something fucking enormous happens that I wouldn’t mind coming back 2 earth 4. Throughout writing that, experiencing the cold that makes you contort
12:27 – wind chimes and gravity pulling like a rope lassoed around Me. Turn forward (2 my right) & it releases Me
10:30 – cold all over me. Also, the previous minute had some pulling [10:31] wind chimes – WTF, went to update, arctic rush flushes my body. I guess there’s still more coming.
10:33 – airplane then wind chimes
10:36 – Time They made me wake 4, wind chimes, gunshot sound, not that loud, maybe cap gun?
10:37 – wind chimes as feeling climbs, now it’s Time 2 say goodbye…[10:38]maybe? Held by something. I guess they’re not done with me
10:40 – wind chimes waltz
10:41 – airplane pairs with shivers
10:42 – what are you waiting for? Intense feeling keep happening
10:43 – this feels like one of the big Times
10:44 – look at sun, seems brighter today, cold coming over
10:45 – turn right. My eyes C weird light over vision
10:46 – before, the pulling, maybe better called magnetism, I feel gravity pushing down hard
10:47 – turn left & faceforward
10:49 – intense, clench and sit up straight, feel my Heartbeat, REMember: don’t hold your breath
10:50 – just a bunch of cold shivers
10:52 – turn on space heater, odd sound at startup
10:53 – I’m getting fed up with this
10:54 – thought about Brittany 🥰 most intense shiver
10:55 – turn left 2 face forward as airplane flies by
10:57 – I know Brittany likes dogs & so do I, but I’m not gonna have a dog until I’m back with her, and obedience training, hell, service dog training, I’ll put N a few bucks, is a must. I’m not having animals like these shits N my home.
10:58 – break & go open door 2 yell at them and finally shut up. They listen 2 me, not my dad, he doesn’t have my voice
11:00 – face the sun, beaming through trees. Can you please just let me B done? I’m so worn, my monster keeps taking form
11:03 – shiver as it turns 11:04
11:05 – same shiver again at change, chimes
11:06 – lean forward like I’m bowing while sitting
11:07 – stayed down for awhile before feeling let me up
11:08 – this is often one of my weird times, lots of pulling
11:09 – breeze from window, lean back All the way down
11:10 – please B done after this – on back Looking at fan…wait a min
11:11 – Guidelines
11:14 – it might B alright
11:15 – alright
11:16 – goodnight
11:17 – §weet♡Dreams
11:18 – bird go “ah-ah-ah”
11:19 – an this B the final call? Chilly & chimes
11:20 – The song that never ends gets on everybody’s nerves
11:21 – cool flush on lap, chimes because for some fucking reason I always have 2 mention then like the world is gonna forget there’s wind
11:22 – fuck with my hair, Ineed a brush
11:23 – Great Days, Jojo pt.4 op 3 plays N head
11:24 – start song on phone as it turns 2
11:27 – bites the dustu
11:28 – chase your Fate
11:30 – finish this bizarre race
11:31 – I thought they would let it end. It feels good, but I’m tired of being pulled around & not being told a thing N between
11:32 – at least this song is from Her
11:33 – Bleach op Nstead of Jojo this time
11:34 – cold left shoulder And knees
11:35 – Tite Kubo has great music taste. You can tell when music is an artist’s passion
11:36 – Shout-out 2 Araki, obviously
11:37 – AOT op1, I guess I’m ending on a anime OP boss rush
11:38 – whatever
11:39 -it’s not that I’m worried about losing faith again, not after today. I just still don’t when I’ll get 2 have friends again, nor How much more of me they take, there’s not much left
11:44 – new song. I don’t know why I checked, but I noticed this song came out on Mac’s death anniversary
11:47 – Japanese music is absolute fire, but it’s hard 2 find songs written N different languages & alphabets
11:49 – cold washes down arms & back
11:50 – I can’t wait ’til I can get back N2 the jazz scene again.
11:53 – through the window
11:54 – smile bomb, probs my fave anime OP, Yu Yu Hakusho
11:55 – cold wind surrounding
11:57 – a sharp shiver
11:58 – I swear if this isn’t the end, they’re huge cock teases. I don’t even know what show this is from
12:00 – tornado sirens (test, since it’s Wednesday)
12:02 – happily ever after finished & so am I
12:03 – cold wind blows one more time, drum solo on wind chimes
12:04 – soul
12:07 – laying on the ground
12:08 – might as well just bury me already
1209 – jump like shock paddles
1210 – guess I needed a doctor
12:11 – stuck down
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12:12 – M comes N2 undo Ü N 2 Me & You
12:15 – not up yet
12:16 – back 2 life,
12:17 – I’m a psychopath killer
12:18 – killer chill fills
12:19 – time-travel just happened
12:20 – welcome home unown Apollo
12:21 – I don’t know from when, guessing 2021
12:22 – umbrellas helps when UTW
12:23 – Divine Feminine with Me
12:24 – don’t hold your breath (AO)
12:25 –
12:26 – close umbrella as birds call trying 2 stall Me
12:27 – how much longer, not like I have anywhere else 2 V, airplane
12:28 – I’m
12:29 – leaning over, cock head 2 the left, C B, B Happy
12:30 – a simple man with his priorities clear 2 C
12:31 – wind chimes stop, but strange for some reason. Like a pendulum stopping dead over a magnet
12:32 – the sound of silence is deafening & the weight of nothing might just break me, more chimes
12:33 – so many bad guessing, gambler’s fallacy, but maybe…
12:34 – something big coming N or outta Me & loud airplane. Sitting straight up
13:35 – nope, still sucking
12:36 – still just on that 1 hit, gonna get another unless they delete my short term memory
12:37 – pack bowl
12:38 – noticed my ring is facing the “Noah” side, guess I Am Him
12:29 – finally take hit #2 as I hear another airplane. I live near an airport N case You haven’t figured that out
12:40 – what
12:21 – Bo is one of the few people who
12:42 – my phone randomly decided 2 switch windows, and ended up stopping me on the perfect word.
12:43 – kinda funny, isn’t it?
12:44 – Such a strange coincidence
12:45 – Weird like that guy who always rolls snake eyes when he plays dice
12:46 –
12:47 – I was wondering what it could mean
12:48 – I’m reminded öF collages & kaleidoscopes
12:49 – I’m glad I’ve gotten 2 the point of
12:50 – I’ve decided 2 Starr stopping the moment the
12:51 – and I’m also considering not letting mycelium use he backspace button, and limbs like I mace up my mind.
12:52 – I’m not sure if I’m Done yet
12:54 – so since I can’t use the back button, figured I’d clarify this is
15:54 – I’m turningthis
15:55 – I’ve also decided2 add amen rulewhere I won’t continue TBD previous line
12:56 – this is such a strange artifact of mad
12:57 – scatter rain
12:58 – oh, N case you’re wondering Y – boredom. Also Poetry. A
12:59 – theroller of ensuring ends. What a mess. I’m saying that again. The ruler of
1;00 – Time 4 business
1:01 – if youwanna see a method 2 my madness, if I have
103 – wow, self-fulfilling Prophecy right there, unfortunately I
1:03 – what hasthisblue fuck is what a mess but
1:04 – I really need 2 find a shipping point before I end up losing all of my mind
1:05 – sitting mind this hurts
1:06 – fuck it, when this song ends, so do I like I’m syncingw watches when dreams N inception
1:07 – oh, I guess
1:08
2:25 – VROOOM
2:32 – Fahrenheit has been popping up just enough 2 notice
2:33 – Fugue 2
2:34 – by the way, I’m done with the arbitrary rules
2:37 – holding hands on the voyage of the acolyte
2:38 – Priscilla by Soft Machine REMinded Me öF a random story about my first girlfriend back N MCS Jr. High. Her name was Alli, short 4 Allison, but she was almost named Priscilla after the girl from Johnny Tremain (a book I happened 2 Read N 3rd grade). And then I was like, thank God, because for some reason I really didn’t like the name (looking back, she seemed a bit…not upset, but a slight offended self consciousness, as if N response 2 the idea that if the coin flip that was her name landed the other way, then maybe I wouldn’t have liked her as much.)
2:44 – dog barks & gravity
But funnily enough, now I really like the name Priscilla, especially cute when it’s shortened 2 Cilla like N the book. Actually, now that I think of it, that’s not the only time that’s happened with a name. And because of course Λll things always has 2 come back 2 Her, the name was “Brittany.” I don’t know why. It’s not like I disliked it like P’s name, but just never sparkled until one day I experienced the true majesty of Her name.
Why did I write this? This is less an observation outside of Me and more of §weet self-reflection history lesson. Thought I brought back 2 the theme that is Brittany’s Beauty, so I think I should get a pass [3:01 Time finish]
♡Sugar☆World☮ 
I love 311, especially Amber, down, and beautiful disaster…
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