Have you ever...ever
woken up after...
killing your self?
...not metaphorically
on my walls literally
brain matter splatters
I have, oh so many
times - more times
than I can count &
that's not even me
counting the ones
I might have been
Sweet dreamings
That's why it's true
when I say my words
won't work on you
because 'til you
can answer "yes"
to that question
I Am just a ghost
haunting you too
[Original]
13 April 2022
Have you ever woken up after killing yourself? Not metaphorically. Brain matter splattered walls level of literal. I have. More times than I can count. And that’s not even counting the ones I think might have only been dreams.
That’s why words won’t work on you. Because until you can answer “yes” to that question, I’m just a ghost haunting you. The One you think you know is dead. I’m all that’s left.
I’m sorry I’m not living up to his name. It wasn’t my choice to take it, but I bear its burden. You are at the top of the list of people to protect, and I’m trying so hard to be the person you remember, but I don’t know how to tell the truth without hurting you.
♡Sugar☆World☮ 