self-hate

i don’t want to be mean

i don’t like to be mean

but i have nothing left

inside of me right now

that believes i have any

worth – i’m nothing, no

i’m not even nothing

i hate everything that

is me – everything i am

feels like another mistake

so when i’m like this – ready

to break like ac twig – they take

advantage of my ennui by taking

my self-hate out on some innocent kid