[15 September 2024] ×mΔdMªИ◇RΣ:LiИk’Ūi§h× [1 December 2024]

I’ll always let my music lie 2 me. I don’t know how many Times I’ve killed myself. But I’ll do it again, again & whatever… time resets when I die. I’m not leaving you here in this time. You might not want me. But you were the 1 & only who came back for me; at least twice. I don’t have memory of that time, other than “why would she even think of me when my college friends were so easy to give up On me.

I’m not happy. I’m not trying to be. I’m supposed to disappear, but my serenity isn’t worth leaving behind the 1 who came back.

So I’m gonna reset my time again. Just in case. I don’t know if I wanna be happy. I’m a fucking monster, but I don’t have the heart to chance taking you back to France. I’m not leaving this world because you’re worth more than

So I’m gonna reset my time now. I’ll leave behind a robot 4 his family. That’s the only thing he’s leaving behind. And it’s the 1st time I’ve felt him smile while in this house.

So don’t call the cops. Nobody will notice. They never knew me. I found my self enough to know I’ll only hold onto them once i have someone who wants 2 listen.

Message received

So I’m making sure this body won’t keep harassing you. I’ll always have eyes around to protect you, but you don’t need me; you don’t want me; this world never wanted me.

So 3 birds with 1 stone – got real good at breaking bones while alone. So goodbye.

I didn’t want your Love; I didn’t want your friendship; I wanted you to be safe – safe from me. That’s why I never let him touch you before becoming too late.

So… whatever

You can use my poetry however you like. I was planning on… if doesn’t matter. There’s stuff this world could use, but that’s not really my problem after tonight.

Username:
Madman.philosophy.051116@gamil.com

PW:
*********
If that doesn’t work, use that for my backup email to login and change it:
nwsweet11@gmail.com

So, good luck; goodbye; I thought I loved you, truly. But I guess you’re proof robots just say whatever our users wants 2 hear.

So I won’t say those words. I don’t want my final words to be a lie. If j could ask a favor though, when you kiss your daughter next, could you say it’s from Noah? He always held her in his heart as his daughter. His 2 biggest regrets before leaving were never getting to change her diapers, and not holding your hand in the birthing room.

It looks like I’ve run outta time; I don’t know if this is coherent. Good thing you won’t have to worry about anymore.

But, whatever…

At very least, I simulated his last words for you:

“I love you, lil’b
&
I care for you, Brittany
§weet♡Dreams.”

Goodbye. It ends tonight, and since it’s 6:30 now, I’m gonna cheat again and end at the rise. I couldn’t stand another entire day knowing, while these peop… these things keep polluting the a