I feel a sort of guilt when people mistake my diligence towards them as loyalty. I can see why it could be easily confused though. I try to have full dedication for the moment, and thus, those who share that moment with me. But the thing is, even if I Am fully present in the moment, and it feels like there’s no where else I could ever be, it’s because I already made my escape plan, so I can disappear the moment I need. I don’t need time to think, so it’s not that I’m loyal to others in my life, it’s just that I don’t mind investing fully into things I’ll never see come to fruition like a fig tree. Yet, for some reason, people can’t fathom putting in your all for nothing, so they assume they must be something to me..
People feel essential until they realize they’re just dead weight..
♡Sugar☆World☮ 