Random Thought #293: Addict’oИ

I think I’ve made it pretty clear I enjoy partaking И illicit §ubstances, and though I’ve said, “everything is worth trying once, and anything worth trying is worth trying again…” I do have a few exceptions to the rule.

My list started with 4: Meth<odist>, Crack, Heroin<e>, & PCP (aka “Angel Dust”). However 2 more have been added to the <b> list: Coke & Fentanyl. Fentanyl is obvious why; I don’t do any drugs that have killed a hero of mine.

Coke is a bit different for my reasons. More inspired out is Love than Fear. B’Cause the logical reason I won’t do Coke is because now it’s often cut with Fentanyl, which is Why before that became a problem I was pretty interested in trying it (though I did end up chicken out the 1 time I was offered some…). But I have a real reason now I won’t do it…

I’m floating N my head right now, reminded of the happiness that inspired the change. Though, I don’t want to lose focus of the original point I wanted to make. Everything before this is bonus. This is the original thought:

There’s only 1 drug that I truly fear, and that I don’t think I’d overcome the addiction: Heroin<e>. Even with Fentanyl, I’m not afraid of it. I know it’s dumb, but a part of me doesn’t believe it will die, and the other part won’t realize when it does – so I can trick myself into believing I’m “invincible,” especially when I’m high.

But the thing about Heroine…

Empathy loves Heroine, B’C’ause it’s the only way 2 feel like…

There’s a lot I’ve left N’B’Twee’И the lynes 4 Mii 2 read. Ü can Pretend 2 Understand.

I Am my own plan

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