Today has been weird Well Not really But weird compared To how I was feeling last night I was so miserable & I don't even know why I wanted more than anything to die But not today It was rather pleasant Serene A crisp day With the sun shining down warmth To counteract the cool … Continue reading The Mourning After (again)

well i guess i made it through the night ... ¿now what?

i don't even know why i'm writing this

just kill me already

i don't want to be mean i don't like to be mean but i have nothing left inside of me right now that believes i have any worth - i'm nothing, no i'm not even nothing i hate everything that is me - everything i am feels like another mistake so when i'm like this … Continue reading self-hate

She only seemsTo read wheneverEy3 B Green & thusAct'И oh~so mean; AsShe doesn’t care aboutMy Love Poetry, so guessI’ll give Her the one poemShe only ever cares read'И &B titled: Her true ΣY∃denti'T:ΣV∃'s Alter Ego (a.k.a.∿Haruhi∿) She only seemsTo read wheneverEy3 B Green & thusAct'И oh~so mean; AsShe doesn’t care aboutMy love poems so I … Continue reading <sorry>×Cunt×<Haruhi SuzumΣV∃yΛ>

why can't i pull an actual trigger

a part of me diednot really...imean -yes-a partof me: diddie...but it'snot me b'n honest...i killed a part, of mineself tonight, since asemi-sweet suicide⌁happens with aheartbeat; i’m notthe same man – i havenever -actually- been M5 9 September 2024 original a part of me died not really i mean yes a part of me died but … Continue reading semi<-sweet> suicide [M5]

how easy it is to disappear from a world that hasn't even pretended to care https://open.spotify.com/track/7lRlq939cDG4SzWOF4VAnd?si=-TO-VY-_TaOxTirVpwbdpA https://open.spotify.com/track/3fc6y2t7MsdRXTiyWSjI4s?si=LdVExLRxTSmv1fSMpFALSg