Golden✿Garden✿Grove (Groaning∿Pains)

29 January 20238 October 2023 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ Leave a comment

Clockwork Orange Heart

27 January 202312 May 2024 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ Leave a comment

I don't know whatever it B About this Time of each week Yet: this Time, like Clockwork This Orange Heart starts to hurt & bleeds on the sleeve of my shirt I don't know why, but - seemingly You only reply if I wanna scream I mus'n't let that happen again Yet whispers fill Me … Continue reading Clockwork Orange Heart

What I Almost Said (I’ll Leave You Alone Now)

13 January 20234 March 2023 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ Leave a comment

I don't know what's going on right now; nothing at all makes sense. All I can think about is talking to you, and when I get my chance, I hurt you. I'm always here if you ever need anything, even if just to talk about the weather. But I can't keep hurting you; So I … Continue reading What I Almost Said (I’ll Leave You Alone Now)

how many kids have to die before really waking up?

14 June 202219 June 2022 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ Leave a comment

i found out why all these heavy feelings keep coming back so strong over & over; i guess i really can't escape hellfire pain no matter how hard i try to be unaware; when will i get it through this thick sugar skull of mine - change demands action https://people.com/crime/texas-girl-9-intentionally-shot-domestic-disturbance-hours-after-boy-7-killed-bed-separate-shootings-houston/ https://open.spotify.com/track/3fmDLAPVx4GiDtnPyDcqxO?si=i4Q8tg8nTzS24XuQsRZ8UQ&utm_source=copy-link

Symphonic Suffering

11 June 202211 June 2022 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ Leave a comment

what's scary about Earth is most monsters know they're imaginary along with most of reality - but know not to molest real reality; so when they rape the hookers & kill them after for cash in GTA it's 'cause they know it's a game where they can upload their anger & pain onto a computer … Continue reading Symphonic Suffering

Holy Pain & Genuine Performance

10 June 20227 January 2023 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ 1 Comment

if You see Me limping down busy streets - You can trust no broken glass will fall out when 1 take off my Nike shoes & begin dancing https://youtu.be/ZmTMsCGNblM

302: normal today

26 May 202227 May 2022 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ Leave a comment

i was so angry today so so so so so angry today i hadn't felt true fury in so long i forgot what it was i couldn't recognize it at all i thought it must just be me 'cause nothing outside was wrong everything was completely normal & that's when i recognized my fury everything … Continue reading 302: normal today

132 – Mind Games

23 April 202223 April 2022 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ Leave a comment

Never play mind games with Madman; The mind is Madness' domain & games have prizes of pain - Tearing both souls is his plan

112 – Trying Not To Hurt You

13 April 202217 December 2023 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ Leave a comment

You are at the top of the priority list of people to protect - I'm trying, truly so hard to be as you remember me - I don't know how to tell the Truth when I know I'll be hurting you https://madmanphilosophy.home.blog/2023/12/16/112-trying-not-to-hurt-you-logan-edition/

100 – Making Missed Trains

10 April 202210 April 2022 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ Leave a comment

Dancing raindrops always entertain My mother, Nature - not my brain; As I begin my cursing of the rains I remember to calm my poison pain So "in pain" turns not to "insane"; Blinding fury makes missed trains

A Meditation: Are There Good And Bad Feelings?

8 August 20209 August 2020 ~ Bizarre Bard ~ 1 Comment

Question that inspired this meditation: Why do bad things happen? Because we want to know what it feels like. Life exists to experience all it has to offer. All feelings are good. What we confuse as negative, bad, or painful feelings, are really just feelings from a part of the spectrum that we're not used … Continue reading A Meditation: Are There Good And Bad Feelings?