If I’m right about what I’m about to write, then this will probably turn into a bit of a “confession” of a more “nefarious” side of me.
I’m not exactly sure how I should start this; I’m hesitant to start this way, since it feels like I might be throwing a lot of people under the bus of misunderstanding; it’s just that, if I’m telling the truth, this aspect of me comes from the Queer (И/N) me…
I’ve mentioned my sexuality before; sprinkled among many posts. Weirdos obsessed with ME could piece together my puzzle. I’ll just try to mention what’s important. .. though, first, I’ll just get to the point:
I’m a Heartbreaker
So, why is being Queer relevant? Well, let’s say, who I’m willing to break kinda reveals a lot about me.
Something I’ve written before is how I’m attracted to, “most girls, some guys, and Androgynous people…”
I’m realizing it’s kinda a, “fuck, kill, marry” situation; I wanna do a quick tangent mention about how 1 of my perspectives agrees with the order while another is a bit more…hesitant.
So, what do I mean?
I’ll skip to the confession part; it may be a bit “bittersweet” but I really do love breaking hearts. It’s just that…I’ll skip that part and just say it’s a lot more fun for me to break boys’ hearts. Almost in this masochistic empathy with my exes, I kinda can’t blame them for what they put me through…
So, it looks like I still have a little more time, so I’ll provide a bit more of my story.
I remember this conversation I had when I was young with one of my good male role models. There was no judgement, just a delivery of Truth:
Every man has to have the conversation with themselves to know if they’re really Gay.
There’s a lot I could talk about that, but I’m gonna go back to my other story.
I like being that Question.
I’m a perfect mix of masculine/feminine that, if I guy was on the fence, I’d be the one who’d convince him to jump.
And, honestly, that feels good for my ego.
Being that sexy, that some closested redneck would risk everything they grew up thinking they knew just to fuck me…
The thing is, nothing against guys; it’s most girls, too; even the Androgynous people that really get me off.
I’m just not interested in anyone bar HER
My one & only…
I don’t really flirt with girls, since if I’m being honest, i do favor girls. My wife & daughter are girls, so they really tip the scales…
So, even though I’m free to flirt with whoever since my heart doesn’t really put up imaginary barriers between me & my desire…I typically put off “gay vibes”
Gaydar is real. I’m a false flag.
I don’t really like breaking girls’ hearts since, even though they aren’t my Love, they’re someone’s current daughter & future wife. I hope other men treat my future wife & daughter with the same respect I treat theirs…
So instead, I “play gay.” It’s not that I’m going out of my way to break hearts, it’s just kinda hard to explain that I made my choice a long time ago, and so, every attempt at flirting is dead on arrival.
I don’t really find value in breaking girls hearts who already know what they like.
There’s just something a little satisfying when a guy sees me & is willing to admit the last Truth he’d ever held; all for someone who already forgot he exists
♡Sugar☆World☮ 