This moment is very… precious to me. I can’t explain why, right now. It’s relevant to the previous couple of posts. I’m trusting my future self will be able to piece the puzzle together again when I inevitably forget…🤫😘
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I won’t explain fully, right now. Just leave my piece of the puzzle before I disappear.
I’ve gotten really good at…”imagining” how my Love would respond to the things I say. I’ve had this experience…
Let’s move on.
I like being a “CasaNoah” – my favorite words to write are love letters.
I’ve invested a lot of time into finding the words to express feelings that I’m waiting to have. It’s hard having autism sometimes…
So, I’ve learned how to say the right things to make you feel certain ways. Not because I’m trying to manipulate you; just so you can understand what I’m trying to communicate, since I had you learn your language, but you never cared to learn mine…
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Now to the point that I actually wanted to make.
I know the right words to say & write to convey my Love, and in a way, you can really feel the blood, sweat & tears it took to find those words. And there’s something romantic in the effort & dedication to make something that doesn’t come naturally…
But then, there are my favorite words; or rather, my Love’s favorite words. It’s funny ’cause, in the moment, I don’t really realize the significance of the words ’til i notice My Love’s reaction, and I’m like,…I don’t know what I’m like really, and I think that’s kinda the point.
There are a few instances where I actually experienced this in physical…I just thought I’d mention that since a lot of… Nevermind
I don’t want to give any examples other than the one I’ll mention at the end, since… that’s what it’s all been about… Really…
I’ll just say, there’s always this little moment, even if unsaid, heard:
Her: “That’s so Sweet…”
Him: “I wasn’t trying to be…”
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Well, anyways, I won’t give away any details of the conversation that led to this most recent moment of, “Sweet Clarity,” just say the words were:
“¿What about lil’b?”
♡Sugar☆World☮ 