I’ve mentioned before that I experience so many signs that I take it for granted how… let’s say “majestic” that moment is…
“Once in a lifetime” events used to happen
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I’m getting distracted. Maybe I’ll go and try to find that post i mentioned this, though i wanna try to get to the point.
It’s gotten to the point that what feels like “life-shifting” moments are happening daily, if not multiple times a day. It’s exhausting. Feeling like you just woke up n a new world, only to realize “nothing changed”…
Haha, FüNИŷ joke…
That wass… I’m not gonna explain why I just went out of my way to distract you when I just said I wanted to get to the point.
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Back to what inspired this post, the video at the top of this post. I haven’t watched it yet; I might, might not. I have an öDD relationship with …let’s say spirit guides that I can actually C…(I’m leaving clues for me, again, though I’ll try to stay focused for Ü). This will hopefully be a short tangent. I’ll just say both God & the Devil have the keys to your algorithm, and sometimes it’s hard to tell Whö B drive’И. So, oftentimes whenI’m uncertain, I’ll ignore all spiritual guidance outside of me, regardless if it’s from those I’ve deemed… let’s say … let’s say nothing about why they’re chosen right now. When I’m uncertain, I’ll ignore they’re guidance even if it would genuinely solve all my problems just by hearing their words. Sometimes I wake up in the world where it’s literally the opposite, where the world ends when I click on their video. So, when I’m uncertain, I just rely on … fully, and trust even a fool can find gold at the end of the rainbow…
《It’s exhausting…》
That was a much longer tangentthan I thought, though after writing it, it feels like that’s the actual reason why this thought popped into my head; to lead me to this point N’B’Twee’И points A & B…
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Though, hopefully, to the original thought that I’m surprised I still remember.
I experience so many signs, that it’s not that I’ve stopped noticing them, rather just not pay them any attention. I would notice something, feel like all my dreams were about to come true, then… nothing.
《It’s exhausting…》
It’s not that i don’t believe the signs. I’m sure if I devoted all my time, focus, and energy into figuring out what they mean, I’d realize the significance… it’s just that, at least to the part of me that actually cares about any of this genuinely to the bottom of my heart… it’s just not significant to that part öF Me…
I can feel the changes. Part of it is learning not to react to things outside of me. Things that really don’t matter.
It’s not really exhausting anymore, because I decided not to let it get to me anymore.
The part of me that is exhausted. I am finally letting him rest. He’s the only sign I’m looking for now.
The parts of me still awake will hopefully be able to enjoy the scenic route where they can smell the flowers and witness the magic tricks.
I’m just not paying any of my hope in illusion.
I’m …
I dont know if I ever actually got my original thought out; I might have…
“Only God knows the time & place”
“If you know, you know”
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People expect…
Whatever
It better be something big
♡Sugar☆World☮ 